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Reblog Wednesday: I Asked God: A Facebook Post From A Friend — Something to Stu Over

This post for ‘Reblog Wednesday’ couldn’t have come at a better time. The thoughts of wanting to feel better physically are reoccurring thoughts, coming in too often throughout my day. And the fact that I can’t change my circumstance or diagnosis is evident in this post and is the perfect reminder of things I conveniently choose to forget. This ‘Reblog Wednesday’ is from a blogger I hold dear and near to my heart, Stuart, his honesty, love for Christ and life, is what I appreciate from reading his work. I couldn’t appreciate him more than I already do.

This post unraveled the truths of my reality. I can either learn to accept my reality or continue to live in the falsehood of reminiscing of what my life once was – life without the prescription medication and physical pain. It’s up to me. If I can only touch ground, ‘come back to Earth,’ as they say, and stop living in the clouds, I’d be able to open my eyes to see my life as it is. And perhaps only then will my sense of purpose fuel my desire to live a more happy and fulfilled life.

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The conversation with God in the post reminded me of my own conversations with God.

I want to tell God what to fix in my life …

my diagnosis – fix it, reverse it,

my physical pain – take it away,

my old, ‘normal self’ – bring her back,

my finances – increase it,

my brain / head – make it stop spinning,

my son’s autism diagnosis – make it better,

my happiness – give me more of it.

And all the while, I’ve been praying for what I cannot change. He’s saying surrender, trust me, leave it to me as I do all things for a reason – beyond your humble comprehension. The reasons for it, all will be revealed in due time – patience. And love, love is what I need, it’s what I should be praying more for, so that I may accept my diagnosis with love, accept things that I will not be able to change.

The trials and tribulations are only there to get me away from worldly things and closer to Him.

Have a blessed day.

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I asked God to take away my habit. God said, No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up. I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. God said, No.. His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary. I asked God to grant me patience. God […]

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Reblog Wednesday: Steve Harvey Cries Out to God in His Struggles: “This Too Shall Pass. Trouble Don’t Last Always.” — GODINTEREST – Christian digital media website exploring faith, culture and life

I’ve been keeping this post as a reminder that hard times don’t last. And I’m not only speaking in regards to financial troubles, but in general. I’m speaking about the times when you don’t feel good about yourself, times when you feel defeated, times when you feel lonely, times when you feel unloved and unworthy, times when you feel like things just happen to you and times when you feel like things are just never going to change for you. Those times.

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I’ll touch more about this later, briefly though, last week I had a complete thyroidectomy – or complete and total removal of my thyroid gland. This will mark my tenth surgery. And as much as I dislike hospitals, the smell, the cold air, the white coats and surgical lights, this surgery here was needed – but aren’t they all! I mention this because I had many moments that I wanted to put into question, the whys were so tempting. The why me, the why am I here again, the why am I in my mid-thirties yet feel like I’m in my mid-eighties. Those whys. Yet I was reminded of God’s infinite mercy and love for me. That he’s given me for one, health insurance, two, a great team of doctors, three, a supportive family and four, he continues to touch my life in a way so that I can look back and know that he doesn’t forget me – he’s right there with me! Because I tend to forget about him, I deviate from his path the moment things don’t go my way. Yet he continues to be so faithful to me. I also realize that – like all things in life, I can either see my illness as a curse or a blessing. And today I choose to see my illness as a blessing.

So, when you feel like you’re the only one feeling like this, living in a very complex situation, trying to figure out something so out of your reach, trying to fix something that just can’t seem to be fixed, remember you’re not alone – he’s got you.

And as Steve Harvey put it so well ….

‘Faith will get you through it because God’s going to make it alright …. because trouble don’t last always.’

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failure is a great teacher, and I think when you make mistakes and you recover from them and you treat them as valuable learning experiences, then you’ve got something to share. – Steve Harvey

via Steve Harvey Cries Out to God in His Struggles: “This Too Shall Pass. Trouble Don’t Last Always.” — GODINTEREST – Christian digital media website exploring faith, culture and life

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Dear 15 Year Old Me – Tag

This is so incredibly exciting! This is something that Everyday Magic With Jubilee and I have been working on for a few days, e-mailing back and forth, trying to create a wonderful tag for you all. Thank you Jubilee for trusting me and joining me in creating this phenomenal tag – I’ve enjoyed the process!

As I’ve gotten older, I’ve often times looked back, either that is on positive or negative decisions I made at the tender age of fifteen. This tag helped me dig a little deeper at what my life was like, things I went through and what I would tell the old me – all these years later. The one thing that absolutely stands out is a heartbreak I experienced at such a young age. I met a boy at fifteen, I thought we’d be in each others lives for the long run, and boy was I wrong! It’s one of those things you experience – some you wish you hadn’t, and heartbreak – at any age, but especially at a young age, can be devastating. And so here through the tag I’ll look back and I’ll share some details on that, and give the fifteen year old me some words of encouragement.

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This tag was created by Everyday Magic With Jubilee and Mom Life With Chiari. You can click on the highlighted names to check out more inspirational posts from their blogs. Make sure to tag them in your post so that they can read your letters of encouragement.

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Often times we may wish that we could go back in time and give our former selves advice and words of wisdom. If you could go back in time, what would advice or encouragement would you give to yourself?

Dear 15 year old me,

1. Don’t be hard on yourself because …

true beauty isn’t on the number you wear. Your beauty shines from within. Try healthier alternatives to losing weight, you’ve dropped down to a size 0 and are having to buy new clothes due to rapid drop in weight – I see you, and although the world celebrates a thin body, it’s making you sick. You’ll be blessed that this will only last but a short time and you’ll be saddened by what you made your body go through. Don’t be so hard on yourself, the decision to once again enjoy eating will be a great one!

2. The relationship you’re in ….

isn’t going to be forever. I see you, don’t be saddened by this. You know the words that were said, the moments that were shared, none were meant to last forever. Don’t fall so hard, I see you. You’re loving, you’re investing so much of your time, your heart, your everything, you’re risking it all, is he?! I see you, you’re believing and hanging on to his every word, I know it’s hard, to believe things won’t turn out the way he’s saying but, trust me, one day he won’t think about anyone but himself. I see you, wanting not to believe me now, but trust me, the ring, the endless flowers with handwritten notes, the album you both made together with moments shared now printed for a forever, he drew your names on the inside, I see you! Yes, it’s hard to believe that the future that you both speak about often will only be nothing more than that – spoken words. I see you, not believing me again, I know! But trust me when I tell you, that when he makes his plans to leave on vacation to his homeland, don’t give away what’s most precious, God loves you sweet girl, don’t do it! God loves you far more than this boy ever will. Why are you risking so much?! I see you, giving your heart out, is he? Oh I know his family is amazing, but does he think you are too?! You’re so much more than you know sweet girl, and a man that loves you will value you until the end. I see you, does he?

3. You will get through this because …

you are stronger than you think you are, you just don’t know it yet. You’ll run into many walls because you’re so angry and hurt by the break up – don’t be, stop and mourn! If you don’t mourn, you will continue to be angry and on a path to self destruction, it isn’t your fault it didn’t work out, it never was, I see you! Thinking you’ve lost years of yourself, you’ve lost your heart, you think you made a fool out of yourself – don’t! Somethings are worth risking and sometimes heartbreak comes in different forms, I know, I’m sorry it happened too. But stop what you’re doing and dig deep in yourself to overcome these feelings, because living in darkness will do nothing but destroy you. You’re working by day and being angry at night. You’re upset thinking that you’re alone in your feelings, and no one understands the loss that you’ve experienced! A pregnancy will come out of your actions, this is what God has in His plans for you, to save you! Otherwise, you will continue down the wrong path and you will thank your baby girl everyday for being such a sweet girl.

4. Don’t get caught up in thinking …

you are weak, you’re not! Believing something someone says doesn’t make you weak, or naive, it makes you in tune with your feelings, it makes you a risk taker, you risked it all! You will slowly begin to restore the faith you had in men and you will slowly begin to open your heart again. You will go through so much, you will be diagnosed with a rare illness, Chiari Malformation + Syringomyelia – 1 in 1,000 people have it, because you’re so strong! I see you, you don’t believe you can take on this illness, but you will – with all the strength you have in you! You’ve dealt with the news as best as you could, being positive and praying for strength – you’ve got strength! You’ll also be a mom to six little ones, I know – how amazing! That doctor that told you today you weren’t going to be able to carry a child due to the state of your ovaries, God is far greater than any of that! Don’t take the medication, God’s going to heal you and you will carry not one child, but six. You’ll be criticized, judged, and persecuted for having your babies but have courage, because they’re your gifts from Him. You’ll have six c-sections, I told you, you weren’t weak, you’re stronger than you know sweet girl! And they’ll have your eyes – yes, the Korean features will continue to live on through them. And they’ll look up to you, for advice and endless laughs because they love your jokes!

5. These experiences will help you learn …

that you have more strength than you know and you will begin to heal your broken heart. It’ll help you have more patience with yourself, be more loving and caring, because you are absolutely beautiful just the way you are. It’ll also remind you, that the only love you can crave for, is God’s. He won’t let you down, He won’t make you believe things that will turn out to be untrue. He’s there, He sees your pain, He sees your worries, He sees you the way I see you, such a beautiful soul, was broken and slowly is getting back on her feet. Because life is full of experiences, we learn from them and continue moving forward, not back.